On more than one occasion I've been told the most popular posts on this site are the ones where I reveal something about myself. Readers appear to have enjoyed the posts I've written about my kids more than the posts about my first digital SLR camera and the tripod I bought for it.
Bottom line is I'm not comfortable writing about myself. In an effort to get over that discomfort, today I have committed to making an attempt to write about myself. The reasons for this are still formulating in my mind, but I've decided to move forward with this plan without analyzing it to death which would definitely result in the immediate stoppage of this foolhardy plan of mine.
To help me do this I agreed to participate in #Trust30, an online initiative and 30-day writing challenge that encourages you to look within and trust yourself. The idea is to use this as an opportunity to reflect on your now, and to create direction for your future. Each day they post a prompt from an original thinker and doer on RalphWaldoEmerson.me. 30 prompts from inspiring thought-leaders will guide me on my writing journey. This should be interesting. Don't be shy about checking back to see how I'm doing and to leave a comment or thought of your own.
Day 1 - Prompt authored by Gwen Bell - "15 Minutes to Live"
We are afraid of truth, afraid of fortune, afraid of death, and afraid of each other. Our age yields no great and perfect persons. – Ralph Waldo Emerson
You just discovered you have fifteen minutes to live.
1. Set a timer for fifteen minutes.
2. Write the story that has to be written.
If I had fifteen minutes to live and was required to write for the entire fifteen minutes, I suppose I would take the time to write to my wife and two kids. I would remind Laurie, as I do regularly, I am worth more to her dead than alive. Upon my death and her collection of my life insurance, she will be able to pay off debts and live happily ever after. In all honesty, this does provide some comfort. I would also tell her that even though I don't say it a lot, I love her very much and, have enjoyed a majority of the time we have had together.
As for Brandon and Lauren, I would want them to know how much I love them, and how incredibly proud I am of both of them. They have become incredible young adults. If I could choose from all the children in the world, I would choose them. I read the newspaper every day and have to marvel at how lucky we were to have Brandon & Lauren. Every day the paper is filled with stories about kids shooting kids, taking drugs, robbing stores, dropping out of school, and on and on and on. We were very fortunate not to have these types of problems with Brandon & Lauren.
Finally, I would tell Laurie, Brandon & Lauren what I always tell them: "If I die today, I have no regrets. I have had a good life. I have lived my life exactly as I wanted to. There is no looking back. Of course I will miss you. I will miss walking you Lauren down the aisle and babysitting my grand kids. I will miss lots of things. But know that I die a happy man. Happy to have been a part of your lives, and happy to have been a part of my life.